honeymoon's over

I know my husband is used to dealing with things, or not dealing with things I should say. As I've come to find out both his mother and grandmother were right, he has no sense when it comes to finances. Money is definately one of the things that I stress out about, I'm a penny pincher most of the time. Now Matthew and I both grew up without money, but we seem to have different out looks on it. He seems to be like my brother andy and spends it kinda willy-nilly. I will admit that if I dont have a purpouse for the extra $ that I have I will spending it (mostly on other ppl). But now that we need a place of our own and we have a baby coming I need money to be staying IN the bank. And this is all kind of put me in a position that I really dont like. I am not working, so all the money being brought in is by Matt. I hate it that I have to take over his money and not let him touch it. I know I should be thinking of it as our money, but that's still really new to me. I cant let anything slide anymore because we Are expecting a baby in 7 months. I'm not the kind of person that cares if I live in a huge house, or strives to own a new car- I'm very content living modestly. I do however take issue with having to stress out wether or not our bills are going to get paid on time, it makes me irritable! And with my pregnant hormones all out of wack anyways , if I'm not happy no one is! lol I already told matthew I am going to be taking over control of finances. That the main reason I am doing so is that I dont handle stress well, and I cant afford loosing our baby over something as trivial as this.
The state of Oregon is finally getting thier heads out of thier rears -and sending my paperwork so I can bill them for the care I did when I was still living there. I'll be really glad to have that money in MY account back in the burg, mostly that money will go to baby stuff/ maternity clothes. I've decided that by the time the baby's 6 months old I'll start my new daycare down here. It'll help make me feel a little bit better, I've always been very independent and liked having my own money. I know how expensive baby's are, and we're going to need that extra money; even if its just so that we can keep taking trips up to see our families. We'll be able to cut some costs with me breastfeeding/pumping. Now I wish I had listened to my grandma and not basically given away all my baby(daycare) things, now I have to start over.

Break'n out a Rehab

Let me start from the beginning....
Three days after Matthew and I had eloped I ended up at Balboa Military hospital. I was completely unable to walk anymore/ or even support my own weight. We discovered that I have a condition called Guillian-Barre ( http://www.bing.com/health/article/mayo-117603/GuillainBarre-syndrome?q=guillain%20barre&FORM=K1RE). I was admitted Dec. 27th ;after a month of being there, I was sent to South Bay Rehab.
Here at Rehab I've had to learn to do everything from brushing my own teeth to walking again. I still can't walk by myself ( I need a walker for balance) but I'm working hard at it. Today I am finally allowed to go home with my husband. I still have lots of therapy ahead of me, but I can at least take care of myself. For the next month or so I'll have Home Health, then after that it'll be out patiant Therapy. The estimated recovery time for GB is about 6 months to a year. It'll probably take me a year simply because of the fact that I'm pregnant ,so progress will be a bit slower.

5 wks along....

So I may only be 5 wks long but everything's started to kick in. First started the cravings for certain things, then this week OMG the morning sickness started! I think it's under ccontrol for now though, lets hope it doesnt get worse. To be honest right now what I'd really like is a big glass of Chocolate milk and a slice of pizza.
I've discovered that ginger is not as great as I have heard, actually it makes me want to vomite just at the smell of it. My sis was right that spearmint helps with heartburn.....so far it's the one thing that helps with my m.s. PB&J and granola are some of the things that the baby doesnt seem to like and the smell of mexican style chicken is sooo a No-no.
If all goes well my m.s. will go away soon since I'm told I've started it kinda early.

getting started

Decided My friend tabatha was onto something with her blogging. I used to always keep a journal, so why not pick the habit up again?! I will have lots and lots of time in the next 8 or so months of nothing to do.
New town, new marriage, new life and going to be a new mom in November. I'm going to need some where to vent, whine and bubble over with excitement.
It tends to be a bit difficult for me to talk too openly with ppl, but I can write just about anything! So I guess this is my way of being able to let ppl in my life know whats going on with out any insecurities getting in the way.